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realised i havent seen my dahling ann in a looongg time....
grace went to sleep...but shes not even sleeping!! nabei.. im so bored.. no one's at home... gahhhh. i want someone to entertain me now...
dxo yesterday, it was a damn lousy crowd... all the stupid underaged people.. my god, i wonder how many ids have been recycled and passing around... bleah. reminded me of the sos days, hahaha!! hiding behind near the toilet, finding an id with a picture that looks like me hiakz. man.. that seems sooo long ago..
grace said something yesterday which i felt was quite right, she gets high faster than me but i get drubk faster than her.. hmmm how does that work i wonder.
oh shit im gettin real hungry... but i already had like 2 meals!! damn need to stop eating.. gravce said just now that im out of shape.. stupid little bitch.
she said shes sleeping but she keeps talking to me. not going to answer her.. hiakz. let her talk to herself.. whahhaahhaha. she just asked me a question, but i ignored her.. whahaha. stupid short little gracie. every 5 mins she will say something.. ehh! im so happy im single now!!, how many hours did u sleep??, eh the music very loud.., oi answer me.., nabei who are u talkin to, are u talking bad about me! humph. nabei. not goin to entertain her.. hohoho.
ahh bye bye,im going to find more food to eat.. :)
i really dun like pple who
1)lie to me
2)take me for granted
3)try to be funny
fuck, damnit, i was so hyped from paul van dyk... and yet, in the end, it fucking sucked, i mean paulie was gd, he was fantastic! bloody hell.. this really sucks.. hate it when things dun go well for the night tt u really wanted to enjoy urself.. went to kel's hse, it was alright, not bad, might even be fun, i won abit of cash, ha, had to leave early.. left a tad too late, knns... had to pull in a favour from someone tt i absolutely didn't want to owe... tmd... fucking ten bucks, ok.. cb, even if it's a fucking lib fine, i got to return it. it's against my principles. at least i was nice. fuck, where the hell did all my cash go? i didn't even drink much, must be the damn cab fares.. cant remember how many cabs i took...
i hate fucking guys who try to be funny, i said it once before and i'm saying it again.. cb, this time it was worst, kns, involve my fucking friend, it was so fucking obvious...
bah...
i wasn't in a very gd mood cos of 3 things, kns, thus leaving zouk early, i was in there for like less than an hr!!! argh, i had been looking forward to paul van dyk, for at least two wks. first things, really fucked it up, when yuey cldn't make it, i was so disappointed. argh.. clubbing with him is usually fun, he clubs for fun and even when he's drunk he doesn't try to be funny and tt goes for the rest tt clubs with him...nothing really pisses me off when i'm clubbing with him, urghz, as for the rest, bah... all mother fuckers. somehow i dunnoe whether it's me or what... damn cbs... and i really dun like the fling word... kns... yeah, maybe it was a fling, but still, kns, i didn't treat it as one, but being ur gd friend now, it really sucked hearing it. cos i didn't fucking treat u like a fling, maybe i did... i guess i did.. but there was still feelings, bah.. or maybe i'm just making excuses. and i am very glad tt we are still close without all the physical nonsense... i guess it's diff, yeah, it is, infact. and i'm really happy with our relationship now, wldn't want it to be diff. but argh, a lil more sensitivity?? i donot like friends who see me as smtg else... it sucks, i see it as a violation. guys are too easy to get to, most of the time when u're not even trying to, then they try to be funny, KNS lah... cb heads, never think with their hearts, alws with their fucking dicks. a relationship can nv start when friendship is alr in place. it'll just ruin everything, then how does it start then?? i wldn't know.. damnit..
bah, lucky i still have vyasa they all, sim gang and yuey gang to count on, noit to try to be funny.. yes, i might be a girl, but i'm your friend most importantly.. it doesn't matter the sexes when friendship is involved, cos when u start think of a friend as a girl, shit happens.
i'm so freaking upset, i cldn't even proply enjoy myself just now at zouk, argh, not even one single bit!!! kns, i'm freaking pissed.. i love my hse, my trance, maybe techno too, haha, they're all the same.. chao cb... I WANT PAUL!!! knnn.... i bet he misses me now, i only had like a single min of dancing at MY speakers podium, cb, cos some fucking drunk girl took my cb space. the two angmohs were hot though. hiakz...
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help i cannot stop eating bak kua!
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someone pls stop me from eating
my parents stock up too much food at home... i cant stop eating. i had like 6 or 7 meals on sunday. then today i went visitng had fried meehoon and buffet and chicken rice then i came back home to haf abalone and shark fin soup. 2 huge bowls. now i just finished steamboat and 2 big slice of salmon. gawd...howm uch weight did i put on?
cheryl, for e sake of ma favie, pls help me slim down by half.
i want an igallop too!
hullohullo.. im still feeling damn full from reunion dinner.. though this year's one was kinda weird.. we didnt even have chinese food.. no beer too.. hmmm.. oh well... heh my mummy was kinda in a foul mood too, cuz me and my sister were taking soo long, and the reservation was at 8.. and she kept rushing us.. and daddy really couldnt be bothered how long we were taking..haha. in the end we still managed to get there on time.. duno what the fuss was about?
and guess what?! i caught the igallop ad today!! like..finally... everyone was telling me about how it looks like a freakin sex toy, and the silly girls on the igallop thingy galloping away with their hips moving suggestively with those dumbass cowboy hats.. hahah yes! its true! oh my goodness, it really is damn funny.. how in the world did osim come up with something like that?! im gonaa ask my mummy for an igallop..whahahahaaaa.
ahh yes, back to the topic. its chinese new year tmr!! yesyes chu yi. first day of visiting.. man im so sick and tired of visiting.. all the aunties pinching cheeks, "wahhhh so pretttyyyy....where u schooling?? ahhhhh uni alreadyyyy.....so fast arhz, aunty old already lahhh horr..not like you young pretty girls..." uh yes, thank you very much, im more interested in that angpao youre holding.. hiakz. uncles gathering outside near the pond, smoking, and i cant join in! humph. no gambling at my aunty's house though... weird how both my parents' sides dont gamble during cny gatherings.. only my godmother's house will be transformed into a gambling den!! :) hahaha chu er is gambling day: tai di, mahjong, blackjack.. but they play mostly tai di.. boring deh. oh well.
hope i get lotsa angpaos this year, stuffed full with cash of course.. hope everyone manages to get up in time.. last year was a disaster.. cuz we act smart, went for lunch cum dinner first before making our way down to my aunty's place, ended up being super late.. no more angpaos to collect,only my grandmother's... bleah. in the end we only got like, 300plus? max. hope it doesnt happen again... please god.
ahh gotta get up at like, 730am for church tmr... its going to be a long tiring day... fake smiles, stifling the urge to pinch my nose at strong perfume smells, and oh yes,something im looking forward to.. stuffing my face with food.. yup, all that tmr.. longlong day.. :(
goodnight..
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:) i made my daddy angry, cos i shouted at my mummy and refused to apologise to her when he asked me to, bahz, i feel evil, and he still did what i asked him to do, i was thinking of bad stuff in my mind, liek how i'm not gonna wish them happy cny the day after, dun care abt the money, and stuff.. bahz. i'm evil, i'm so evil... bah. too sturborn to apologise, fuck... what the hell is wrong with me???
well.. bah... hmmm, recent events had me gain an extra gd friend, loyalty to the max. happy.. there are many friends to be made, but there are the sincere ones tt u make as gd friends. and i hope i can keep those that i consider gd friends and gd pple... i wish the best and hope for my new friend.. :) knew him a while back, but somehow we're closer now. weird how things actually turn out. happy tt i gained the trust and appreciation of a great guy.u dun owe me anything. cos i know if what happened to u happened to me, u wld do the same for me. finally returned all my debts. yay.. no owing pple for cny.. well, but got pple owe me, heh heh, nvm... mum's freaking out right now, cos daddy just got home, and there's onlu two more mins for him to bathe.. haha.. oh fuck, how am i going to wish them happy cny tmr morning??? it's not abt the money, it's really not, it's a tradition and their are my parents, this is what i ought to do..
haiz, zouk mon, somewhat not really looking forward to clubbing, been a while, clubbing's soso and a complete waste of time and money, if u actually think abt it... bah. fuck, but then again, it's paul van dyk... hmmm...
i'm not emo now, i dun think of stupid things, it was just a phase tt i was going thru, for a short while, well it takes all these weirdout moments to make life more unstagnant i guess.
have a happy collecting ang bao collecting and family and friends catching up to do.
oh and eat goodies, but not too much, cos fats doesn't look nice on the body, unless it's on the boobs area. and do not piss ur parentss off, cos they loe u to the ma, no matter what... :)
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NOW
bah... gd day overall...
went to sch with manross, haha, damn funny sia... was trying to be stupid and made him laugh, told him alot of funny jokes. then i went to meet martin to cut my hair, true enough, the guy was really gd, and it was really cheap... one of my better hair i think. :)nothing dramatic. just normal, the way i like it, easy to keep, easy to maintain.. and stupid too short fringe too. my hair is impt to me!!!! i like.
went with martin to meet niven and vyasa... great guys.. yup yup. josie was in camp. nice to see a really tight gp tt will nv fall apart. hope tt me and cheryl and grace/me and cheryl and wenting, will be the same too. or even better, me, cheryl, grace and ting.. everyone wld be so happy tog. went to coffee bean at somewhere, i like, nice ambience. correct spelling??? fuck... dunnoe where, had no idea where i was, i think serangoon somewhere. gonna dye my hair, like jet black, it's alr jet black, natural colour, but i've got some streaks init, i guess i better cover them up,not really ob, but it's really unappealing when u stare at it.heh heh...
got reunion dinner tmr, having vege, bah, dun liek, but mummy and granddad like.. tmd, nvm!!!!!!! oh and i hope i get my cash tmr!!!!! must return everyone by sun, ran up quite a few debts alr, bah... wldn't want to owe pple cash over the festive period. not nice, will owe for the rest of the yr one... tried and tested last chinese yr.not willing to do it again.
gotta study now sia, no time for play liao, maybe some wld be alright... haha, oh and paul van dyk's on mon night, bah... more pple cant make it, martin has to go overseas, dunnoe w manross is going, kelv's gp is going, but bah, they're not my gp, and i only know kelv well, and they're old farts, hahahaha... ok lahz, kidding. kelvin is an old man... yuey cant go, dun think the rest will go without him, well, stanley's interested i think, and jicheng will stick with moi! so nice even though trance is not really him, he's a gd sport, derek, dunno, rnb fan.. bah, what was suppsoed to eb a fun night with like quite some pple kinda dwindled down to liek a few, oh yeah and gavin too!! he's hse, trance close enough.. oh well, i will still go even if there's only the two of us, em and jicheng, not missing yet another famous international dj, i missed dimitri the last time, i told everyone to go, and yet i didn't go, bah... cheryl's helping her friend support his friend's party, dunno who, at dxo, oh well, i think it'll suck anyway, but not ncie to ask her to back out and she is definatley not hse, bloody pig... boo... humph...
and i super think one of my friends is getting ruder and ruder, like he doesn't appreciate me, well then fine, wasn't tt close to u in the first place, just stop being rude, it's not nice and reallllllllly annoying, i'm not annoying u man, i hardly even speak to u in the first place, oh yeah, i guess tt's y u donot appreciate me, haha, whatever... u suck. dun talk to me, if u plan on being rude! doesn't make a diff... u aint one of my gd friends anyway. it doesn't matter, rudeness is not tolerated, yeah, some friends are rude to me sometimes, liek vyasa and wenting and gavin, but it's all gd natured rudeness, unlike yours.and i'm rude to them too, it's fun rudeness in tt way.. and i'm super tight with them, u turn me off man, sucker.
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muahmuah, my baby boy....
hmmm, he looks like someone, my friend...
joseph pang!
yeah, like totally now, hahaha
bahz, waiting for manross to come over after clubbing.... bah, shit, not enuf cash to go chop my shiny locks off with martin tmr, knnb, nvm... i'll try to get some, oh when oh when is my cash coming in?? fri, bah, better be soon, gotta return all the peeps their cash.. broke ann... knnb, lucky i got full pack of cigs. hopefully it can last me tmr... yay.. i'm bored... yay, i hope i will go to sch tmr, which wld mean tt i went for all four lecs, hohohohoho, ann gd girl. study like tmr or smtg. i'm not going ktv, boring, and i cant sing for nuts anyway, the novelty wore offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
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hullooo people!! hahaaaaaa. im okay already,not cranky no more..
to those i scared yesterday,esp reubenie n chinwai.. heh heh. sorry guys.. :) muackz cheryl loves u all manymany!
boring day today, went for 2 3hour lit classes... bleah i kept sleeping.. and the profs kept disturbing me.. stupid let poor sleepdeprived cheryl sleep lah..nabei.
i love my lit though.. although many people think im crazy for taking an eng lit degree, im not going to be a teacher, thats just weird, ill just go make fun of the stupid little kids, and cheekopek the fresh young boys.. whahahahhahahaa. every half hour of teaching ill go take a smoke break, cmon guys those who smoke come along! free cigs! whahahahahaha.
oh, yesterday when i went for my first finance class, i saw my friend!! yay! i have a friend in my finance class! saw another friend too, but i didnt want to talk to him hahahaha. then annabelle called me and i went out to talk to her, then when i went back in he said the whole class could hear what i was talking about..omg...then he said i was like sayin what the fuck n cheebye damn loudly.. oh dear...must stop saying fuck and cheebye, what will my class kids think?? this teacher saying fuck..oh dear.
ladida.
went to meet grace n silly ben after sch at breko.. i thought we were meeting the other ben, was quite surprised when i saw ben the man sitting there hiakz..
i need cash!! needneedneed. theres a difference between a want and a need.. i know the difference. want is when u wana go shopping but short on cash, thats a want. need is when u spend your last 10bucks in your ezlink card to buy cigs n dont have enough to go to sch and back, thats a need. :) i know my priorities.
THIS IS A SPECIAL MSG TO KINGTINGTING::
i love u a lot, we go watch memoirs of a geisha together.. okayy?? sorry that day i really forgot.. heeeeeeeee. couldnt call u somemore.. muackzmuackz!!!
at holland v just now...yooohoooo ben the man!!
i didnt take with ben... bleah. next time. i want to take with reubeeennnnnn alsoo. nice sweet boy.
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......... i dun like today, bad day.. sucks...
didn't have any sleep last night, went over to cheryl's place early in the morning to have brekkie with her.. our fav bah cho mee.. let derek stuff his face at geylang, bahz.. went to sch, went for ful day, 9 to 5 pm... sucks.. haha
gavin and gilson both entertained me respectively for both diff lecs.. love them both, love gavin the most.. bah, had bad news from yuey, he can't go for paul van dyke, sucks, my fav hse partner not going, duty... bah... oh well, i will gather all my resources and get pple to entertain me, yueu's worth like ten of the most entertaining pple.
went down to town with like tonnes of 5 cents, curtesy of cheryl, i'm so freaking broke, waiting for friday to come, where most of the cash will come in and i can return all my debts to my creditors, before cny... bad luck will follow if ya dun do tt before cny... met vyasa and jo, martin, manross, cheryl and tim... stupid boys and their dota... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the sweetest most pure angel in the whole wide world, love ya...
was a sad day, with two friends troubled over relationships, over but sigh... do relationships really have tt much of an impact and when u look back, did u really feel tt the pain was worth it?? are the "sweet" memories worth the every single stab of pain tt ur heart goes through?? i dun think so.. but time changes evrything, yeah u're feel better and stronger, but the pain comes back in a diff form.. from another partner.are flings with no emotions better than relationships tt involved so much pain?? pain hurts more than joy... i feel sad, cos both are such great guys with so much to give, i dunnoe abt the other side of the story, but i dun think they did anything wrong, but tt somehow seems impossible in the logical part of view, and so the phrase says "it takes two hands to clap" but still i know them and i love them for who they are, their faults seems faultless and gd pts, perfect.. perfect in every way.. weird... relationships are weird, and i hope both can pick themselves up, away from the pain, and i will be there for them each and every single step of the way, listenning, hoping tt it wld make them feel better. everyone has problems, all diff kinds, family, friends, sch, lovelife, and career wise, even probs with themselves tt they wld have to go thru. it was awkward just now, and i cld see how much u guys worry and feel hurt. i hope all these wld go away, and hmm, wldn't it be better if nothing had happened?? i dunno, i do not know what happened. but... i dunnoe, sigh. ur friends arnd u feel sad when u feel sad. makes us worry when bad stuff happened. sad experiences can rob a happy go lucky person of the forever smiling face.
i heart u guys all.. muahmuahmuackz.................................................
knife me knife me
tmd, okay i'm fucking bored... derek's a meanie... i dunwan to talk to him alr, i'm taking my notes from him, and then i'll ignore him for the rest of his life.. bahz.. wahahhaha, good?? very gd... he made me eat cup noodles and we all know what cup noodles taste like, luckily i've cheese hot dogs at home, i wanna go out and buy cigs, i only have one left bahz, scared... and also lazy... hmmmm, we'll see how the nicotine craving kicks in ltr... ok, i'm freaking bored, how am i gonna pass my time until 6 plus am, planning not to sleep tonight, woke up at 6 plus pm today, had a dream, weird ones, but i had a baby, a sweet baby, sweet and innocent, i was protecting it, i really felt as if i was carrying a baby in my arms, it felt so gd, and surprisingly enough the baby was a girl. i dun liek baby girls i liek baby boys... i wanna be a mummy... NOW!!! now wldn't be gd thoug, cos it wld mean tt the baby wld be born out of wedlock, and nope, tt wunt be gd, cos my daddy will kill me, liek literally, i'm serious... sigh, can't sleep tmr night also, i promised mr kelvin wee tt i wld play mj with him, bahz... lsoe money again, tmd, he's evil alws come my hse and take money... evryday call call, when i see his no and russ's no, i know alr, next time dun pick up... only know how to call me for mj, bahz....
it's my angel's birthday tmr!! actually now, today, probly meeting the guys for dinenr, vanny petes coming too hopefully, yay... i love josie posie.. muai angel, my heart... hiakz... sweetie pie, doodeedoo.
i feel fat, what happened to my resolution after vic secret??? sigh, i love them, hot angels, with long long legs... someone just called me a shortie... harz??? bah, taller than ave for singaporeans, bahz, y are singaporeans so short, i wished i was 175, wahahah, tt wld be hot man, taller than shortie singaporeans man... when i wear heels alr towering them by a head, i love going out with cj, he's so freaking tall, like 187, and he's pure chinese, wear my tallest heels also will be shorter than him, in my tallest heels, i'm arnd 1.8??? give and take lahz... i wished i had flat abs liek kiera nightley, goona work on tt... yay... i love sexy lingerie.. pwoar... the power of a sexy woman in sexy lingerie with a sexy bod... guys suck... they'll all just become stupid idiots who think with their sticks when they see tt... i wanna be a powerful sexy woman in sexy lingerie with a sexy bod... bahz.... dream on... god created gorgeous women with gorgeous bodies to be appreciated, it's a work of art, even normal girls like me will stare at the tv screen, unable to take my eyes away...
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it's a wonderful night, u gotta take it from me, it's a wonderful night,come on and break it on down, u gotta shake it on down, come on and break it on down.... dedededededededededed deumnudedednumdededede... we're gonna stimulate ur mind, evreyone is high, eyes just like a child.. evrything seems right... dededede mum dede didededed dum...
29th JAN!!!!! guess who's coming down to town?? KING OF TRANCE, paul can dyke, woohoo, are u excited?? are u psyched????!?! i am, YUEY!!!!!!!!!! are u psyched?!?!?!? fuck all the bouncing babies at phuture... yay.... i'll see ya at the podium zouk, preferabley the one right at the speakers, bahz, but they only allow girls, poutzzzzzzzzz....
bahzzzzzz...
| You Are a Passionate Kisser |
 You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat It's all about where your passion leads you |
where is my sexy stranger?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!
i'm so bored, i need a sexy stranger to spice things up a lil, sick of living my virgin life, it's safe, fun to bond with friends, but oh so borrrrrrrrrrrring....
fuck to all the gossips, i'm my own girl, i shall do what i like and what i feel like doing... no explanations neeeded...
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i self invite. i like.
FOOD FOR THOUGHT.
remember the days when all of us dont own a phone and still manage to meet each other?
i cannot remember days without a phone. HAHAHAHA!
bye bye.
bleah just got home.... ann why so emo????? :( dont be emo okay... i love u... :) muah muahz.
nabei grace stole my reuben.. grrrrrrrrrrrrr....... dont like grace already..little bitch... bleahhhhh. ill kick her in my sleep tonight....... dont give her my comforter...
supposed to just go eat bah chor mee near my place, but ended up at holland v... i wanted to stay home n study!!!! :( very sad.. there wasnt any space for us at stupid breko.. went to wala's in the end.. hahha caught unexpected.. was great as usual.. havent been there in a while.. happy!!!!!!!! yay dennis when u go to wala's and play me n gracie will be there to support u okay!!
then we went to reuben's place later where we played silly drinking games n shit.. stupid truth or dare.. i hate truth or dare.. got to know some personal stuff of people we dont really know.. hhhaaahhahahaa!!! quite funny.. then when grace mark and this other guy, aloysius i think, went to sleep, we were talking, very insightful...yes i believe life is damn monotonous, and we should all travel some time, get to see the world and the other side of things...we should all get the meaning of life, whatever it may be to our own selves,it might not be the same for each and every one of us.. but we should all figure out what we want from life.. yes? :) blah, i love my baby reuben... grace wants to snatch him... hah!!! dont let her.. bleah she n reuben ganged up against me.. angry..........
fun night drinking n playing stupid games.. hur. but quite happy lahz... though i did want to study...
should listen to mummy.. she said i should convert my day back into day and my night into night, instead of day for night and night for day... yeahh shes right.. shouldnt be such an owl anymore... very bad for health.. hahahah.
im just bored...waiting for grace to finish her bath... i wana bathe.. then sleep..... duno whether i gotta get up for church tmr.. hahahahah to those waking up for church tmr.. pls get up on time!!! :)
bahhh... need to sleep, tmr's going to be a study day... im starting to feel a little guilty for not going to school.. im going to school on monday people, i will i swear.. hahha cuz monday is the last day to hand in my stupid school fees..have to go... nabei about 4000plus k, i hate local unis.. i hate unis in general.. study for what.. so useless...... we should all just use our godgiven talents in life yes.. bleah.
when is grace going to get out of my bathroom??! .............
u know... when u feel lonely sometimes and u're bored and sick of evryone else around u??? friends cant seem to fill the emptiness inside, at least when u're arnd them, but u can't be bothered to find out, u rather not go clubbing, u can't seetle down to study, u dun even want to play mah jiong, horrors!!! i wish i had a good book, bks alws settles it for me, but i dun have any more books left to read, i want my fantasy... drat, bahz... if only the lock at yuey's place didn't bust last night, i cld have went in to steal his bks, and unwrap cheryl's xmas present, wahahaha...
i wonder throughout, thinking why do humans get this feeling... i'm scared of boredom, i alws get bored, with people and stuff... not good...maybe i just ought to marry a fantasy writer, so he can write out tonnes of fantasy stuff for me and i can read for the rest of my life, good??? hello, handsome tall, matured, dunid to be dark, contary to marcus's proclaims tt i have a fetish for small dark boys... gavin is just special, he makes me laugh, he cares for me, he's a special hunny bunny in my heart nv failing to cheer me up, although we dun meet up nowadays, he doesn't think i'm bad,stupid pple who dunnoe me and just judge me by impressions, infact he thinks i'm an angel in this bad bad world... i love him for tt... although i'm no angel.. i think, guffaws... i need me cash, i need to go retail therapy and i need to go on a holiday... i need to get away, from my friends and sch and everyone, except for cheryl and grace and wt, and gavin booboo, cos i love them...
and i'm sorry and extremely mortified, mistaking like at least 4 pple, blabbering to them like i was their best friend, heh... whatever, it's a club, get prepared to be shocked by drunk girls like me...
take this broken heart and do what u want with it, dun care anymore... just dun understand... take these broken wings and learn how to fly again so free.. i'm a humming bird, twit twit..
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i seriously dont know how the hell i can look so damn ugly in pictures.... wahhhhhhhhhh very sad... :(
okay lah, so im so not photogenic.. pui.
its raining now.. and i feel like sleeping.... snore snore. but ann woke me up and now i cant sleep, that idiot. ill bet shes happily sleeping now after her lunch.. gahh.
im so bored.. still need to type out my notes.. bleah so sick of it. why cant they help us convert the pdf file into word??? dumbasses who call themselves professors... blahblahblah. not going to yap on and on and complain...
read yuey's blog, we should learn to count our blessings cuz our problems are trivial as compared to others with real problems.. yupyup.
okay goodnight God bless.
cheryl is going to type her notes and study a lil bit.. a lil bit of this a lil bit of that. lalala.
kua mi lan.
by e way that was my cute little mark whom u mistaken for raymond.
fuck,headache, can't sleep, up so early, listening to cheryl the sucker's ipod... funny, i've a headache, but somehow only the "smooth" tunes of benny benassi can soothe my aching head. didn't drink tt much either, bahz... must be the mixes.. we came out with a new drink yst, wine plus beer, plus vodka, plus mixes.... nice.... it's the wine... my wine, i brought it, i rock, haha... fuck it's so early, and i can't sleep.. damn. time flew by in zouk last night, seems like we were only there for like half an hr.. bahz... everyone kept disappearing yst, not me this time. i remember i was quite high in the club, but my protection mode switched on, immediately when i saw grace prancing past a drunkard cheryl with a guy.. heh, her friend. something wrong with me, gotta change... smile world, cos the ann smiles with u... haha...
another word... it's kinda obvious when i dunwanna acknowledge some pple, so shut the hell up and stop sending me weirdo smses... it's irritating. bahz... i said i will nv speak to u again, means never, dumbass, dun tell me what next time, maybe in the future, stop acting liek a wimpy girl, i've cut the damn line.
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heeeeeelloooooooo!
haha i tell you all. I rule the world.
BOW MINIONS!
ok la i have nth to contribute leh. im not that bimbo.
but i promise to fix up your blog with a nice template and also do up the links ok!
cheryl yzz, monday want to watch memoirs of a geisha? text me or tag me but before monday okay! ;D
dennis ang was right.. i promise the stars and the moon but i dont get anything done.. no school again, yes all you people out there are right. but im really angry with myself most of all, why am i like that??? im an insomniac, but when i do actually fall asleep, i find it soo difficult to get up. bleah. disappointed in myself for missing 3 entire weeks of school.... :(
i want someone to sing 'tong hua' to me...
haha, i cldn't help myself as i laughed at u.. heh, sucker... wondering y?? wonder away, u big fart...
anyway, bahz, i guess i'm too possesive over the friends i really care abt, when they tell me stuff, i kinda disaprove it and my feelings do show on my face... gosh, oh well... i'm sorry and i do know tt the irony is tt, i'm guilty of the things i disaprove as well. i gotta remember tt life is abt experiences and i dunnoe, i just worry.. for the rest, i really dun give a damn... but still.. i gotta learn how to let go...
smilez, well, met up with the guys just now, vyasa and gang, but mostly was just talking to martin... it was gd, haven seen them in ages.. i miss them, gotta catch up more often with them.. overslept, didn't go to sch, sigh... i really wanted to, well, tmr then.. i will study, i will survive with gd results.
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some pple are just pigs. u can really see the diff btn an older person who have been trhu stuff and a younger person who hasn't... maturity and experience, dear boy, rite now?? sucks to u.
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omgomgomg..... i fucking couldnt get up for school again... :((((( im sooo upset.
i told my mum to wake me up, cuz she said shes gettin up early today... but she didnt wake me up... and then i set my handphone alarm on, but i duno how the fuck it turned it fucking self off! sobb. i just woke up...even through my curtains it was quite bright...i thought to myself it couldnt possibly be 8am...omg im such a bloody loser.. :(((
im too upset, i cant go back to sleep...and its like how early..sigh...................
go n smoke.
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| You're a Wild Drunk |
 You can get enough drink. Seriously, you'll just go puke and start pounding them back again! |
| How You Are In Love |
 You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
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| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
| Your Inner Child Is Angry |
 You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming. |
| Your Career Type: Enterprising |
 You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable. Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp Director City Manager - Judge - Lawyer Recreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales Person School Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect. |
| Your Dating Purity Score: 93% |
 You are an innocent dater. You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship. Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample! |
| Your Personality Profile |
 You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval. |
| You Have a Choleric Temperament |
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| You Are Scary |
 You even scare scary people sometimes! |
| You Should Drive a Saturn Sky |
 You're sleek and smooth, and you need a car to match your hot persona. Besides, sometimes you want your top up - and sometimes you want it down. |
| Your Fortune Is |
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| Your Personality Is |
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
| You Are a Boston Creme Donut |
 You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you. But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft. You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily. You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out. |
| You Are 40% Weird |
 Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
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| Your Heart Is Blue |
 Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well. You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return. Your flirting style: Friendly Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish What you bring to relationships: Loyalty |
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headache... really bad one, bought chocolates to cheer myself up and panadol to sooth my aching head, cigs to feel better
i feel silly, i wished i had the mentality to quit, but i dun. i've been told so many thousand times tt i'm stubborn to the core. i wished i treat my body with care, i wish i had a healthier livestyle, i wish i cld sleep, i wish i've healtheir habits, i wish i had hobbies, i wish i'm more interested in life, i wish i've more ambitions, i wish i was a better person, but most of all, i wish i knew what's wrong with me; why do i have sudden mood swings, why do i cry when i dun even know y my heart aches...
maybe it's hormones, why the hell do hormones cause so much changes to us?? to our physical being and emotional state, brainwaves and hormones trigger off thoughts and emotions and reaction pathways. my head hurts... i wished it didn't, my physical being hurts.. strained past to the last pt..
ps: finally a entry without any vulgarities, happy???? i can be polite and civil too... hope evryone else is having a better time than me.
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| Your Porn Star Name Is... |
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yep, i like them dumb quizzes...even though they lie. hahaha!! did quite a few today.. found out im 50% boyish 50% girlish so i get along with both sexes, and im supposed to be a gemini..and i dont get into relationships, cuz i like 'friends with benefits'. cheebye la,im not like that. gahhhhh.
omg.....i cant freakin sleep.. how to go church later if mummy wants to go.. bleah. should try to at least get some shuteye. 20mins power nap!! bullshit. power naps are bullshit. they make u wanna sleep more... snoresnore.
anyone with their names starting with P, K, S, T and H, please take a queue number and line up. you might be my potential husband..whhahaahhahaahhahaa.
zzzzzzz.
qns :actually, what i mean is why the person in photo is DIFFERENT from the person in real life loh?
bcos one of my frenz said that she look fat in photo but in real life, we dun think she is fat loh.
ans:Simple...
Just tell her she's fat lor.
If she thinks she's fat, then tell her what she wants to hear. No point telling otherwise...
talking...
Wish I told her/him how I feel,
Maybe she/he'd be here right now
but instead...
singing...
I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me (yeah)
Lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me (well, well)
How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
oooo oohhhhh yeah
Tomorrow morning, I'm a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me
(Say whent the nights are lonely)
(3x with adlib until fade)
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me
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ok, today has been the worst day of the wk so far, perhaps mth, jeez, i'm really starting to hate 2006... feels weird, and everyone seems differfent, or mayube i'm thinking too much, as usual.. fucking sucks...
bahz....
bad things to happened to me today
1.i cldn't find my simply white to make my teeth lk whiter, tmd nvm... go and xia suai myself
2. the fucking script was in chinese and english, apparently pple founf me amusing again, or rather annoying, i kept laughing and screwing thingts up, but i dun care
3.i got my fucking period, gonna be super bloated in photos, ccb
4.i stained my fucking culuottes, (for all those ignorant fools out there, i mean skirt with shorts attached to it)and i was wearing a fucking thong, attach what shit pad
5.i'm officially fucking broke, like serious, deep pockets turned out, no money liaoz
6.cldn't get a cab for nuts, i felt weak, been feeling weak like all the time nowadays.. cb...
7.i got a blister on my fourth right foot, knnb, damn painful lahz, i swear the boots deformed my toe
8.no hairspray left, how the fuck am i going to style my hair tmr early in the morning,sia, knnb.. not much make up too.. bahzzz... ...
9.finally got a cab, but uncle fucking kuai lan, can't ta him, with the fifteen bucks i had left, cb
10.uncle fucked up, went the wrong way and made me seem like the idiot, hello.... i told u the fuckign dirctions, but being the usual ham ji kia i am, i kept my stupid mouth shut, i even thanked him, he went fucking out of the way three times and got me lost and even had the nerve to pt out my so called "mistake" chao lun, u know anot huhz??? i even had a bad experience abt a fucking taxi uncle who screamed at me dmn loudly when i didnh't know, hey man, this is ur fucking living, earn the damn thing, summore i'll alws pay in full, even though the fucking uncle pruposely get me lost... earn more money, knn, cab drivers nowadays.. bah bee boos... and the worst thing??? he left the meter on when i went in to get extra cash... wtf?? tt has nv happened before... i fucking spend alot of cabs, i fucking hate it... my record, 100 plus a day, chao cb...
11.my mum threw away the sweet sweet red roses from jo and the bouquet from derek, i'm like so freaking pissed, am i not destinied to even keep flowers from my friendds???
knnb, my right eyebrow just twitched, something bad's gonna happen tmr, fuck, i'm probly gonna fall flat on my face into the mud, bahz, right beside the two damn prettys.. tmd, pressure sia both of them...
pooffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff
| The Suave Lover 31% partner focus, 57% aggressiveness, 45% adventurousness | |
| Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that: You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, you concentrate more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about your performance. This places you in the Lover Style of: The Suave Lover. The Suave Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is reminiscent of some of the most classic lover figures of all time, such as Casanova or Don Juan, or more recently James Bond (several of the "Bond girls" fit this type, too). This shouldn't be confused with a "player" or someone who is solely interested in physical love, but someone who is looking for an incredibly elusive thing: a worthy partner. The Suave Lover is a treasure to find, but can be incredibly difficult to hold on to, once found. In terms of physical love, the Suave Lover can sometimes be surprisingly tender. Given the right setting, and the right lover, the Suave Lover can be a delight in bed. Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Devoted Lover (most of all) or the Romantic Lover, or the Liberated Lover. -
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why harz??? knnb, men...
